Somebody called me "uto-uto" today. I don't know. I'm receiving flames, hate mails and any language or online behavior intended to mock or humiliate me nowadays, but this one kinda hit me. I don't know. I mean,... what did he mean by that? If it meant I trust every word that comes out of his mouth so much that I might not be able to sense whether he's being serious or not... just maybe because we're not talking in person that's why there's this difficulty to notice whether if he's being sarcastic or not... I don't think that's being uto-uto. But maybe... just maybe... he's right, I was blinded by my preoccupations that's why I didn't sense what he was trying to say... and it's a big shame, really. Imagine, a didn't get a simple joke coming from a renowned deliverer of daily hilarity. Or maybe... just maybe... I trusted that this guy always bring sincere words whenever we talk online. I mean, I enjoyed chatting with him, regardless of his sometimes being self-centered and eccentric which I found very fascinating about this guy... I just thought and felt this person's words were fun yet sincere all the time... or maybe, just maybe... I trusted him too much. That's why the word "uto-uto", from this man whom I am beginning to be fond of, from a man whom I looked up to, from a man whom I respect so much for the status he has right now, is a word too strong for me to take.

Lessons learned: 1) Yahoo Messenger is evil if you don't have a webcam. 2)Last year's new year's resolution still remains: Detachment. 3) I am prone to making mistakes (for I am but human...) but to avoid public humiliation, I must avoid tagboards from now on.

"Shut the door, Katie, don't say a word..."